Well since my last post we found out my little girl had an ear infection. :( She got some medicine and has been doing a lot better. I had for sure loved all the cuddling it just one of those things as a mom that makes it so worth it!
Today was definitely one of those mornings I did not want to wake and go to church, but I had this urgency at the last minute to get up and go! I left the kids home with Jake and just went, which when you go alone you realize how much of each talk or lesson you really miss! It was great to be able to go cause it was exactly what I needed to hear. I just want to share some of the stuff that I took note on and how it has applied to my life.
Its all is about the beginning The Creation and The Fall. From the very beginning we were all given Choices and that is what its all about is our AGENCY. I never realized HOW important that it is and how much it applys to me. We are all given a choice our daily lives are consumed with choice every minute, hour, second, and day! Those choices we make are what we get to live with the rest of our lives and some may even have consequences to follow. I finally think what my grandma has been telling me all these years is sinking in. ALL of us have AGENCY but we can only control what WE
(ourselves) do. We are only in control of us. Which is still A LOT to be responsible for in some sense. My biggest fault is getting upset and losing sight of life is becasue I am so worried about the choices certain people are making I'm not able to focus on what I should be doing and the choice I should be making for myself and family. I realized that I made the choice to come to this earth and I agreed to the challenges and trials that I would go through (Don't know why I would do such a thing) ;) But without these I have no idea where I would be. Would my faith have been tested enough that I would be able to get back into church and go through the temple? Would I have the family and kids that I do? Would I ever gain my testimony back or even have one? I realized that this life is about TRIALS and we will ALL have that one trial that will hit the core and how we handle it and how we get through it defines us into who we can be.
I have had some CRAPPY trials and most recent changed how I gained more faith in my Heavenly Father than I ever thought was possible, but now that things are going good and I am choosing to make this best and work harder on the situation it scares me to know that I could have a trial that could be worse. I wonder how I can prepare for it when/if it were to so the my core can be spiritually ready for it. Though no one can prepare for the unexpected easily. I am glad to be where I am in my life and though I still am hoping and waiting for my eternal family to be sealed together I will continue to be patient and stay positive about it happening in the very near future. I hope everyone has a wonderful Sunday Afternoon!
